spoiling each other

despite the much talk of tough love, i still spoil my daughter, enormously and often times unconsciously so.

last night though, it was a conscious act, completely. sienna used to be attached to a pink blanky. we had such a hard time when it was misplaced or it had to be washed. over the summer, we lost the blanky on our tip to the geogian bay. she faced the reality and accepted it quite well.

meanwhile, i started to use anoter pink blanket as a light cover for her sleep. slowly, she started to lay her head on it as a pillow. and slowly she started to carry it around, like, what else? a blanky!

i was debating about what to do with her going back to the old habit. she needs something for comfort because she sleeps on her own. i want her to fall asleep more easily with it for her nap at school. she will give it up when she is ready to. and we could easily split up this blanket into 4 pieces for home, for school and for spares... i asked if she would like to have a blanky for her nap at school. she jumped at the idea.

so, without much debating, i found myself doing it already last night: cutting up and locking the edges with darker pink threads. at the beginning, i almost lost it because i couldn't get the sawing machine to have the right density and tension. sienna was right there for me.

"mommy, what's going on? take it easy. ok, you need some help from the moon," she turned on a moon-shaped music box and to go with it, she made up her own song about sun, moon and stars... later on, she played with an old mechanical typewriter right next to me, "mommy, see, we are both working..."

as she was singing and chatting, i calmed down and the sawing machine started to dance. at the end, we gave each other high fives and i thanked her for her cooperation. making no mistake, she said, "mommy, you need to thank the 'moon'!"

i am telling you, it's so tempting to spoil her, maybe because every time i get spoiled by her right back.