In A Slump All Right
Those friends who haven’t come to visit started to wonder if I am alive and well. To the question: “Were you in a slump?”, I answered as follow:
Coming back to China does seem like a slump into the deep bottom of self-indulgence. To talk about it would be an act of bragging or showing off my comfortable and corrupted life. So I chose to indulge quietly. Not updating my blog as regularly as I did before and not interacting with my friends makes me feel terrible. It’s like passing the time in vain, no trace left. This is the burden of guilt that I carry. Otherwise, it dosen't even feel real.
Ironically, China is very very quiet, feeling it from our apartment ("box house”), nothing like what I imagined before coming back. Lui continue to do his art. I live his life and help Sienna live hers. That pretty much sums up the great life of mine.
I am busy as before because a trail of visiting friends from what seems like all over the world never stopped ever since we landed in China. For the most recent visits, we had three of them here from two families in Toronto for Sienna's birthday celebration! Then right after that, my cousin coming out of nowhere, or Pittsburg stayed for 2 weeks. My visitors' principle is that I provide food and shelter, free of charge of course. I will not skip any opportunity to dine out and will offer to foot the bills. But no company should be expected from me to go on the tour of the Forbidden city or Olympic stadium or the Great Wall of China. If you insist, I will throw in free transportation to make up for my absence.
I send Sienna to school now by school bus, which stops right in front of our gate. I spend my day surfing the web digging Hollywood gossip and watching US presidential campaign unfolded, with astrology in the back of my mind, of course. I shop in the store or online. I visit spa or make house calls for our masseur to come...
My friends, who have faith in my ability to help others, continue to talk about the possibilities. We will see how far that will take. Maybe I will appear in some TV shows as a guest. We will see.
Where are you and how are you? I need to get out my shell and visit all the friends, if not in real world, at least virtually.
Coming back to China does seem like a slump into the deep bottom of self-indulgence. To talk about it would be an act of bragging or showing off my comfortable and corrupted life. So I chose to indulge quietly. Not updating my blog as regularly as I did before and not interacting with my friends makes me feel terrible. It’s like passing the time in vain, no trace left. This is the burden of guilt that I carry. Otherwise, it dosen't even feel real.
Ironically, China is very very quiet, feeling it from our apartment ("box house”), nothing like what I imagined before coming back. Lui continue to do his art. I live his life and help Sienna live hers. That pretty much sums up the great life of mine.
I am busy as before because a trail of visiting friends from what seems like all over the world never stopped ever since we landed in China. For the most recent visits, we had three of them here from two families in Toronto for Sienna's birthday celebration! Then right after that, my cousin coming out of nowhere, or Pittsburg stayed for 2 weeks. My visitors' principle is that I provide food and shelter, free of charge of course. I will not skip any opportunity to dine out and will offer to foot the bills. But no company should be expected from me to go on the tour of the Forbidden city or Olympic stadium or the Great Wall of China. If you insist, I will throw in free transportation to make up for my absence.
I send Sienna to school now by school bus, which stops right in front of our gate. I spend my day surfing the web digging Hollywood gossip and watching US presidential campaign unfolded, with astrology in the back of my mind, of course. I shop in the store or online. I visit spa or make house calls for our masseur to come...
My friends, who have faith in my ability to help others, continue to talk about the possibilities. We will see how far that will take. Maybe I will appear in some TV shows as a guest. We will see.
Where are you and how are you? I need to get out my shell and visit all the friends, if not in real world, at least virtually.
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